being single sucks

saturday was my cousin's daughter's first birthday luau. a nice luau at my uncle's house down by the beach. hawaiian food, hawaiian music, hula, and of course...after it all, karaoke. what luau would be complete without hearing your drunk relatives or people you don't even know belting out "holiday" by madonna for the whole neighborhood to hear?

the best thing about it, besides seing my family was seeing bobby again. he and his band played from 8-10. i met him in 1994 through rob, my ex. and now he's got this band and they won two hoku awards. he's just a real awesome, super-nice guy and it brought back memories seeing him sing and hanging out with him again.

other than that, i'm still fucking single. and it is getting the he point where its really starting to suck. i was or i thought things were going to happen with joe, my friend's super handsome-built-smart-just-too good to be true brother from the mainland who liked me for the longest time when i was attatched but started to avoid me like the plague when he found out i was intrested in him too. well, thats a bit harsh. not like the plague, but... you know how it is. its a long story that if i start getting into to it it'll be pages long and i don't even think i have it in me to commit to typing it all out.

well...okay...long story short he had been intrested in me for a long time and i him but i was always with some one and we'd see each other when he'd come home on his breaks form school in san diego and there was always this attraction. i saw this psychic named lan (not just any psychic either, shes the real deal. told me alot of things about my family no one would know. specifics) and she told me i was going to be marry this guy whose name started with j, was a teacher, well built, and tall. which describes joe exactly. i didnt think of joe when she told me that but when i told my friend, she's like "its by brother!" so she tells her mom and her mom starts calling me her future daughter in law and he comes down about a month ago and they don't tell him but they try to like "set us up" and he starts freaking out and i start freaking out cause its all i hear about and the thing just blows up in my face. i see him and things are weird cause he knows i know and i know he knows and he's a shy guy and his brother is giving him shit and his sister is giving him shit. and his mom is doing things like bringing baby pictures of him at this barbeque just for the purpose of showing me. and he's sitting there like "mom stop". and...i don't know is there much else to say? it just doesn't get any worse.

that said, theres nothing going on.

every day its the same old thing. i get up in the morning at six thirty, go to work, come home, eat, watch some tv and go to sleep. very exciting, huh? and usually i'm tired when i get home and i just don't feel like sitting in front of another computer, you know? i look at computer screens all damn day. today i checked my email and there was something like 300 emails that haven't been checked. two thirds of them are junk mail.

it sounds like another excuse for not keeping up with my diary.

actually, it is.