my second day

well this was my second day at work and i just head a glass of wine and i feel relaxed. it feels good to be working again but at the same time i'm a little anxious about how well i'm going to to at this job. it probably seems more complicated to me right now because i'm new to this...but its making me nervous that there are so many ways and opportunities to fuck this job up. theres a million codes to learn, things you need to be aware of when dealing with the travel agent or customer (we are a wholesale travel agency who mainly deals with travel agents), questions you need to ask, that one misstep can screw you up and then the company is liable and then ultimately its my ass that is on the line. the only thing i can do now is to know my shit and hope everything comes into place. the training is four weeks and i'm praying to god i pass.

because if i do, i think i really could like this job. the travel benefits are good, we get to go on these "site inspections" where we stay at five star hotels and resorts on maui, kauai, the big island, etc. for the weekend in deluxe accomadations for free, and then after a year when i start dealing with west coast reservations we go there too. i'll get discounts on international packages...

and what i want to do more than anything is travel. i would love to be able to send my mom to spain, and when she talks about it, its like a dream...like "man...i would love to go there someday....", like its impossible. almost like hearing someone say, "man wouldn't it be a trip to walk on the moon?".

i just really want to be good at this.