strange dream

last night i had a very strange and disturbing dream. i was somewhere, home i think, and i had a telephone call. it was shan. she said she with "a" regg's sister. we were making plans to go out that night and "a" was going to come with us. all of a sudden i was at regg's house. it didn't look like how regg's house looks, but in my dream it was his house. i walked in and his whole family was sitting at a table. i walked over to "a" and gave her a hug and a kiss. i then walked over to regg's mom who was sitting at one end of table and gave her a hug and kiss. then regg's mom gave me a bottle of woolite "for all the new clothes you just bought." "no, no. that's alright". i say. but she insisted i take the bottle and i do. i see regg sitting at the other end of the table and i get nervous at the thought of approaching him, so i walk over to his stepfather and give him a kiss hello. and then finally, i walk over to regg, smile, and kiss him on the cheek. i turn around, look at shann and "a" and together with some other people we leave the house. as i'm walking out regg comes running after me. and for some reason his face changes. this time he looks like my ex-boyfriend, rob. although he looks like rob, he's really regg. he starts complaining about his ex, "b", the one he had his daughter with, the one who gave us problems. but what he says is weird. he says, "i went to get a pair of socks and there were none. she doesn't even wash clothes." and i say, "so! thats your fucking problem! you left me remember?! what do you want me to do now!?" he looks at me, devastated, and runs to an awaiting helicopter with some south-american looking woman waiting for him inside. he hops on to the helicopter and flies off. all of a sudden i look around me and i am in this large grassy field at the school close to my house. i'm screaming and i'm crying for regg to come back. for some reason i think he's dead or he killed himself. like the helicopter represents him going to heaven or something. i start running. running through the grass down the steps that lead to the neighborhood i live in. running, running, running. as i'm running i see "k" drive by me in a volkswagen van. he's a friend of a guy that i used ot date, "g". "k" waves. i continue running and "g" drives past me in a truck. he does a double take and then waves to me too. i finally get to my house, but it isn't my house. its the house of "b", regg's ex girlfriend and the mother of his child. she looks different. like a prettier version of herself. lighter hair and fairer skin. i walk into her room and she's sitting on her bed and i lay down next to her. she starts talking to me about regg but i can't remember what she's saying. i'm telling her that i never hated her, that i never had anything against her. she lays down next to me and her face is right next to mine. she kisses me. and i'm kissing her. and she positions herself on top of me so that i'm looking at her chest and her head is slightly above mine. her chest looks familiar. i look at her face and she's looking into my eyes and she's kissing me. i look back to her chest and its not a woman's chest its a man's chest. its regg's chest. i say, "what are you?" she/he ignores me and starts to undress me and we're making love and i'm confused. i'm looking at her face and its "b" but her chest looks like regg's and this "thing" is making love to me and its definetly a man, if you know what i mean. i start to freak out and i push he/she off of me and jump off the bed. i look at it and it looks like "b" but its a hermaphrodite! he/she gets up and walks me out of the room to another room where "b"'s mom is sitting. in real life, i have no idea what "b"'s mom looks like but this woman in my dream is "b"'s mom. she starts asking me questions. "did regg give you all his money?" "were you guys living together?" asking me questions in a way that implied regg was dead. i remembered he was dead, felt sick to my stomach, and ran out of the house. and then, thank god, i woke up.

all day i have not been able to get this dream out of my head. i mean, i've had some pretty weird dreams but this one? its so disturbing i've pretty much been in a daze thinking about it since i woke up. what is it supposed to mean? wtf? what the hell is going on in that mind of mine?