i'm interested, you jackass!

okay...lol...i just called him. i know i'm pathetic, i know i just probably shouldn't have done it but, you know what, i feel alot better. and you know what, i don't play games, if i'm interested i show it and i am.

because he should know by now that i'm interested in him and if he doesn't know or if he himself is not interested in me, than so be it...i will never have to call him again or give him another thought.

the funny thing is when i called him i think he was in the middle of working (he works all hours so i really don't know when he's working or not) he told me to hold and then asked if he could call me back. ha. so what have i done now? i just put myself back in the position of waiting for him to call. but not really, see, because this was my last and final move. my last attempt to show him that i'm interested in him, that i would like to see him again, that i enjoy his company, and if he never calls back so be it.

so, in a way, i feel a bit better now.

i think.