random thoughts from a girl who's had a few

these are just a bunch of random thoughts...don't mind me if they don't make sense...i've had a few glasses of wine.

...why do people tell me "you don't sound like you're from waimanalo" when i tell them i'm from there. like its some kind of compliment.
...the other day when i was working at the airport (one of my side jobs) this guy from north carolina said "y'all speak good english". what? this is a state! we speak english here you fucking idiot!
...i feel like when my tutu dies our family tradition of gathering on sundays and holidays will die with her and that depresses me. very much.
...i hate it that whenever i feel depressed i want to have a drink.
...i hate it that whenever i go to sunday dinners at tutu's, songs by his father come on the radio and it reminds me of him and makes me want another glass of wine.
...why do i think about him so much. what's wrong with me?
...i hate it that when i was on my way home from work today i cried while listening to that freaking chicago song, "if you leave me now".
...it seems that ever since regg the slightest thing sentimental or sad will make me cry.
...i hate it that i miss him so much.
...this island is too small. everyone knows each other.
...but i wouldn't trade it for the world.
...shit. i hope people who know me aren't reading this right now.
...isn't it weird how someone can come into your life and effect you in such a huge way and not even realize it?
...i wonder if i have an effect on anyone.
...i smoked almost a pack of cigarettes since last night. so much for quitting.
...hey but i only smoke when i go out. heh heh heh.
...when will i ever get married and have children? it seems so far away.
...its so hard to find a good man nowadays it seems. or maybe its just hawaii.
...i miss regg. did i say that already?
...if i could just have him as a friend i think i would be happy.
...i wonder if he ever thinks of me.
...i wonder if he runs into people like i do who say "hey are you still going out with...".
...i hate that shit.
...i haven't had sex in about three months.
...i haven't had sex with someone i truly loved in five months.
...he's just another guy standing in a seven eleven waiting at an atm machine, right?