girlfights, whales, and tainted love.

i know it been a while since i've been here. no reason. just been doing things here and there and actually been away from the computer. which is a good thing, right?

two friends of mine, one of whom i consider almost like a sister have been at each other for a while now. and it culminated at the end of a party on saturday night with a girlfight in the front yard of the house my sister-friend just moved in to. how sick is that? i won't bore you all with long details, but it was ugly. demeaning, cruel, shocking insults were hurled at my sister-friend and i found myself in the front yard trying to break up a fight by putting my friend into a headlock. there were only three of us there at the time. i'm too old for this shit.

i've been hiking up to makapu'u point for the last couple of weeks with my dad and the last time we went we spotted a whale jumping out of the ocean. for about five minutes. it was the coolest thing.

and next week tuesday i will start as a volunteer at a program for at-risk youth. the purpose of the program is to mentor and provide positive role models for children in waimanalo through activities such as canoe paddling, surfing, water safety etc. i'll be tutoring these kids after school and participating in their activites afterward. i'm a little scared, but up to the challenge. it'll be nice to give something to the community.

my photoshoot is coming up in saturday and i've been thinking about cutting my hair. i bought the last issue of elle and love christie turlington's haircut on the cover. hmm...i haven't made up mind yet...just because i don't want to do anything drastic before the shoot. but knowing me and my history with spontaneously changing my hair, i won't be surprised if i just chop it off tomorrow. i don't know, we'll see.

thought i saw regg today driving on the road...i haven't seen him since thanksgiving. the thought also crossed my mind to sell that bracelet he gave me. then i thought, well thats good isnt it? a few months ago, i wouldn't have dreamed of selling it. now i look at it and it just seems useless. i see it and it reminds me of...i don't know...failed love i guess.