dream
2002-03-03
i had a dream about regg last night. i was telling him that i couldn't do this anymore. i couldn't keep waiting for him. how long did he expect me to wait? one year? two years? crying and crying. saying i couldn't do it anymore.and it makes sense but doesn't. couldn't do what? wait for him? but we're not together. maybe somewhere inside i am waiting for him. hoping we'll somehow get back together again. maybe thats what it meant.
last night on the way home in shann's car i heard a song by his dad on the radio and i'm sure thats what triggered the dream. sometimes listening to him is like listening to regg.
i want to let go but i guess theres a part of me still holding on. and it makes me angry sometimes. like, what am i holding on to? why is he still in my mind? still a part of me?
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