small kine scared of cancer

i couldn't hold out any longer. on friday i had a 102 degree fever. after a week i was actually getting worse not better so i sucked it up and went to the doctor.

to my surprise the visit turned out to be only fourty dollars. the lady told me at LEAST a hundred when i called. if i knew it would have only been fourty i would've went a long time ago. so anyway, its a good thing it was only fourty because if she even tried to charge me a hundred i would've bitched. she didn't even so much as take my temprature cause the thing was broken. i had already taken it at home, but still. she just sat there and asked me questions, nodded her head, wrote things down. then she checked my heart with her stethoscope probably just so it looked like she was doing something, wrote a perscription and that was it.

so i have an ear and respitory infection. the fever went away, the body aches, but i still have this freaking cough and every morning at four o' clock i wake up coughing my brains out so i haven't really got a good nights sleep in a while. i don't know what it is, i'll sleep fine but for some reason at 4 am i'll wake up coughing.

while i was sitting in the room waiting for the doctor there was this poster showing a healthy lung and a smoker's lung and it showed all the different types of lung cancers. like PICTURES of the cancers. i seriously want to quit. i've only been smoking for about six years now and i'm not a heavy smoker so i guess i should quit now before it gets worse. it was that picture of the smoker's lung all black and shriveled. gross out!