ma soeur

i miss my sister. yeah, i have one. she's six years older than me and she lives in phoenix. about five years ago she moved to new york and then to phoenix with her husband. we never were that close. maybe its because of the age difference. i don't really know. we used to fight alot. she'd boss me around and hit me and all the normal big sister stuff, i guess. but we never were close and it kind of bothers me. i wish we were closer. i wish i could call her up and talk to her like a girlfriend, but i don't. and i never have. she doesn't even know me, really. she couldn't tell you what was going on in my life right now and i couldn't tell you what was going on in hers. it almost sounds as if if we didn't grow up in the same home. but i miss her. or maybe i'm missing the relationship i wish we had.