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Nothing new or exciting today...my computer screen is still acting up. Sometimes its really bad where the screen is almost black and then sometimes it just has these purple lines on them like it does now. UGGH! I have to buy a new one, but can't afford to!

Anyhow, this past weekend was pretty uneventful. Shannon and I went to Indigo to have a couple drinks. There was some kind of rock band there. It sucked for the most part. I was hoping that the band that was playing when Paul and I had gone there a few months ago would be there but they weren't. So we left there and killed some time at another bar before going to Pipeline. I'm seriously getting sick of that place and need to find other places go on a Saturday night. When you keep seeing the same people every time you go there, you know its time to move on to somewhere else.

At around 2am Grant met me at the Pipeline and we went to the Wave. We were driving around trying to think of places we could go at 2 in the morning and he suggested a few strip bars but thats the kind of thing you do with a bunch of friends. I couldn't see just the two of us going to a stripbar. Anyhow, the Wave was pretty dead too. There was some kind of all-girl rock band there who were awesome but I don't remember their name. Afterwards we went to eat at Zippy's and I ended up spending the night at his house.

I was surfing the net the other day and found that filming wrapped on the movie White Oleander which is a book I read a couple years ago. So yesterday I started reading it again so i'll be finished before the movie comes out. It said Michelle Pfeiffer is playing the mother, Ingrid, and some girl named Alison Lohman is playing the main character of the book, Astrid. I hope the movie turns out well and not a disappointment like so many movies that come out nowadays. I really want to see In The Bedroom and Mulholland Drive. Anyone see it yet?

Also been working on my French since by the time I go back to school this fall it will have been two semesters since my last French class. And any if anyone has taken a language before, you know how difficult it is if you're not reviewing or practicing some bit everyday. You forget alot. I've already found that I forgot quite a bit and I'm not about to let all that studying go down the drain.

Been thinking about Regg alot lately. Wonder what he's doing, that sort of thing. On New Years Day when I went with Charmaine to her mother's house in Kahalu'u, I had the pleasure (i'm being sarcastic, of course) of driving right past his home. Charmaine's mom lives right down the street from Regg's parents which I didn't know at the time. Not till we made a turn down that street. I saw his car parked outside and it made me cringe. Just knowing that he was there...in that house. I don't know. Just the whole weirdness of it all...how your life can change in a second, you know? Just a few months ago I was there lying with him in his room...kissing his face. And here I am, on a holiday, and its just another house i'm driving by while on my way to some other place. It made me a little sad thats all.

And at times I still cry about it. I may think of a certain time or place or situation when we were together and it'll either make me angry or sad or a combination of both. Whatever it is, in the end it always makes me cry. Not cry like I did when the hurt was still fresh but cry as you do when you watch someone you love get on an airplane and watch that plane fly away...the distance growing...till you can't see it no more and its nothing but a speck in the sky. The days are soon going to be months and I feel the distance. He's soon going to be a memory...someone a few years from now my friends and I will be talking about one evening like we sometimes do. "Yeah...remember that guy? Remember how crazy you were for him?"

Heh, heh. Regg, you will end up being "that guy" after all.