weekend regg

Parents just came home from Vegas yesterday. Got the house all spic and span before they got here. Everyone pretty much stayed over the whole weekend, which was nice...didn't have to stay home in an empty house...made even more empty since Regg left.

He called on Thursday. Then on Friday I went to pick him up at Ala Moana Shopping Center. It was nice, but part of me is feeling maybe it wasn't a good thing to do. I mean, shit, I KNOW...I knew from the beginning. But like I was saying, we just wanted this extention of last weekend. The talking, the laughing...but instead all I could think of was how he had to leave the next day and go back to Makaha...to treatment. Saturday we went to see a movie and then I had to drop him off. The whole way to Makaha we had this conversation about my friends. How he didn't understand our relationships and such. Anyway...I was getting all emotional and offended about it even though it wasn't anything to be emotional about. It was just knowing that I was dropping him off that was making me that way, I think. All the emotions of wanting him there, wanting to spend time with him, but thinking that maybe this wasn't a good thing. Maybe this would make it harder. I don't know what to think about it. My mind is not working to be intospective right now.

And tomorrow's Thanksgiving. Fucking Thanksgiving without Regg. Shit, what am I bitching about? I have so much to be thankful for.