random thoughts

can't believe what i did last night...
i know i should not have done it...
i mean, i just don't do that kind of thing...
and though i know its fucked up, i don't feel all that bad about it...
now what's more fucked, the fact that i did it?
or that i don't feel all that bad about it?
i know there will be some kind of repercussion...
and he said he's in love with me...
and i know why i did this...
and it has nothing to do with love...
what have i done?

i wish i could just pack up and leave this very moment...
am i running away from my problems?
maybe.
probably.
sometimes i think people need to go away, though...
to see things from a different angle...
i just need a change...

can't wait to have lunch with rob tomorrow...
i can't believe i just shut him out when i started seeing regg...
we are so much better friends than lovers...
breaking up with him is probably THE best relationship decision i ever made...
who am i kidding, it is THE best decision i've made period- relationship or otherwise...
he's been such a good friend...
he's like a quilt made up of all the experiences we shared together...
safe and familiar...

that's all for now...
more later...