i feel like i can't breathe

I went out last night...made a stop at Mai Tai before heading to Pipeline. I usually try to avoid that place but last night I just felt like dancing. Something I haven't done in a while. Like I expected, saw all the old co-workers and they were asking about you. Nothing much I can say but "oh, he's around." Really trying to avoid the subject and the confused looks. "Around? You mean he's here?" No, he's not here...get the hint, man? I don't want to talk about it. I can't, and its none of your buisness anyway.

Its getting kinda lonely. You've been away for over 2 months. And I feel like your slipping away from me. Yes, I know you have to do this. I know you have to do this to get better. There was no other choice. I'm trying to be strong...but the truth is our relationship was on the rocks before you left. You call me 4 days a week. I talk to you for 10 minutes each time. And you haven't called yesterday, and you haven't called today. And I haven't spoke to you since Thursday. And I just have this weird feeling. Something is wrong I think. Damn I hate this. I'm trying to grab on to something....something to reassure me. But, no call. And the truth is, our realtionship was on the rocks before you left.